i’m wrapping up week 36 of my pregnancy & coming to the realization that he could literally come into the world any day now. this is all out of my control and i’m trying my best to go-with-the-flow and be open-minded for when/how labor could happen. i’m finding peace in thinking of my mama friend’s who have had kids and just reminding myself that so many other women do this…i can do this! my belly is rock hard like a bowling ball and he’s still moving around (especially in the evenings) and hiccuping every day. getting up from sitting or getting out of bed is truly a struggle, it’s just hard to maneuver this extra large bump! his nursery is ready for him, decorated and filled with necessities, even though he will most likely be sleeping in a bassinet next to our bed for the first few weeks. a bassinet came with the uppababy vista stroller we bought and we got a bassinet stand that it clips onto so he will be near me when i will need to get up for feedings around the clock. i plan to breastfeed, but ya never know! we hope to introduce baby bottles ~a month in so that dek & other family members can experience feeding time and give me a break when needed. i am, day-by-day, adding things to my hospital bag & i’m 100% sure i’m overpacking but i’d rather take too much stuff and be overprepared than need that onnneee thing i didn’t bring. i’ll share what i’m packing in another post- i’ve gotten some great recommendations from friends which i am really thankful for. we are trying our best to “prepare” the doggies for baby’s arrival by using the word “baby” a lot and being in the nursery with them, letting them sniff everything new and also playing baby crying videos from youtube, which they don’t seem to care about yet, but i’m excited to see how they react to the real thing! this could possibly be my last “baby bumpdate” post as i have been doing these every 4 weeks (see previous ones here), so the next one would technically be at 40 weeks. we’ll see – wish me luck!
we hadn’t been in front of the camera together since our wedding almost 7 years ago (trip down memory lane here) & i felt a strong desire to capture these moments of our family before adding baby boy to the mix.
i wanted the vibe to feel bohemian & ethereal with a juxtaposition of us being dressed up in a natural environment. i shared my inspiration board with amy & she seriously captured us and the lighting sooooo spot on. the whole shoot took about an hour (this location lends itself to many different backdrops all within walking distance) and thankfully my sister came to help out with the doggies since we wanted them in a few shots with us too. i plan to print & frame a few for the nursery and for around the house. i love, love, love how they turned out!!!
let me know which one’s your fav in the comments below.
so i wore black & white stripes to jury duty yesterday….didn’t realize that probably wasn’t the best choice in style until i was there going through the metal detectors at the frank crowley courthouse. i didn’t get picked which i was kind of bummed about. actually, we were all dismissed after hours of waiting around as it seemed they reached an agreement or something. last time i was summoned for jury duty i was chosen & served on the jury for a criminal case for a whole week. it was fascinating and important for me to be all in & unbiased and i took it so seriously.
anyways, back to my fashion choice for the occasion – this tee shirt dress is the first real “maternity” dress i’ve bought as i usually just wear larger clothes or flowy things & this one just stretches in all the right places & is the perfect length! one lady at the courthouse even said i was camouflaging my baby bump well behind the stripes, ha! these footbed sandals are also a recent purchase because i can barely fit into my sandals. no joke, i’m swollen and puffy especially in my legs and feet and am just needing to slide my fat feet into anything comfortable these days.
baby boy is getting so big, i can feel him moving around so much and it’s weird to feel some “hard” spots on my stomach where i am assuming he is resting a foot or his little booty. i had my 34-week checkup this past monday & he’s tracking along fine, my weight is another story. i’ve gained about 50 pounds so far and still have 1+ month left which i try to not get so in my head about, but it’s been really hard for me to give up control of my body. i know i could be eating better, working out more, etc. but at this point, i am just determined to bring a healthy boy into this world and then whip my butt back into shape. i know it will take time and it’s not like i think that within a month or two i will be back to my “new normal,” but it’s a determination mindset that i’m working on. i’m telling myself that my goal will be to lose baby weight within 6-8 months as that’s how long it took to put it all on. to keep my body moving these days i walk in the evenings with dek & the pups, but taking long walks can make me feel so much pressure down there, so i just walk at a slower pace. the doctor said that if baby “drops,” which could be any day now, into my pelvis it will feel like a bowling ball in between my legs….can’t wait for that! ha. other than pressure, swollen/sore feet, and some spinal pain i feel overall pretty good. i’ve been describing my pregnancy to people lately as “claustrophobic in my own body” because at this point it feels like he’s invading my space and taking over inside of me. we love him so much already though & can’t wait to have him in this world and in our family. i’m finishing decorating and putting things in their place in the nursery after receiving so many sweet gifts & baby clothes from friends/family from our baby shower last weekend & i can’t wait to share the “nursey reveal” before & after with you guys!
baby boy & i had a shower this weekend with friends and family and i was completely overwhelmed by all of the love and the amount of detail put into making it so beautiful and perfect. it was seriously the bohemian baby shower of my dreams! i’m now 34 weeks preggers (for previous posts about my #bumpdates click here) and it was the perfect time to have this shower. i have a pretty significant baby belly but am not to the point where i am too uncomfortable to walk or anything, so the timing was on point. a few months ago my sister/best friends/tribe asked me what vibe i wanted & what some of my favorite things were to eat, etc. & they just took it from there! i told them i wanted to keep it simple and slightly bohemian, not overly “babyish” & they went above & beyond! the invitations were perfection, simple with a touch of greenery…down to the handwritten mailing addresses (dekel thought it was spam when it came in the mail because my friend marli’s handwriting is so pretty he thought it was a stamp!!!) the shower itself was at my friend katelin’s house & from the moment i walked in i was blown away! there was garland hanging from doorways, beautiful balloons, blue hydrangeas, take-home succulent shower gifts for all of the guests, a buffet spread that made my mouth water with all of my cravings & favorite foods, endless grapefruit juice, chilled topo chico, a mantle that boasted handmade decorated wooden letters by my friend chelsey and all of my favorite people under one roof. my mom also brought my baby book so we could flip through and reminisce. we ate and then took a quiz on how well everyone knew me & my pregnancy, which was really fun! it was a dream baby shower & such a special day, i’m so thankful to have so many people who love me and my family & who are excited to meet baby boy soon!
week 32 is in full swing & i am feelin’ it with suuuuper swollen ankles and legs. my legs are water-logged, ya’ll. my calves don’t even jiggle anymore, they are hard as rocks & my feet only fit into slider sandals, it’s a liiiiittle redic. we went to our 32-week appointment this week and we asked if the numbness and tingling in my legs is normal and they said “normal” goes out the door during pregnancy, so there’s that. they said that baby is measuring right on track and probably weighing about 4.5 pounds. we had an ultrasound & saw some sonogram photos but, to be honest, he looked like a little ghost on the screen. i couldn’t really make out his face or body very well, but it’s fine because we only have a few more weeks until we meet him! i’m getting so excited (and nervous) about his arrival. like when will my water break, where will i be, will it be embarrassing, etc. and then the whole birth thing still reallllyyy freaks me out but there’s no turning back now! we are registered at the hospital and are planning on getting a tour of the maternity wing next weekend which should calm my nerves a bit. finding things that fit is becoming more and more challenging, even dresses that fit a few weeks ago don’t go over my belly, so it’s a daily struggle, but carrying him is such a privilege and i can’t wait to feel the love when he enters the world and makes us parents.
week 28 of my pregnancy is coming to an end and i’m officially in the 3rd trimester, which is nuts! (see previous pregnancy bumpdates from week 17 here, week 20 here & week 24 here) signs that i’m in the 3rd trimester are charlie horses, i’m getting them like every other day right when i wake up and stretch my legs, which is soooo annoying & painful. another thing i’m experiencing is losing sensation in my legs and if i sit on my knees to play with the dogs, even for a few minutes, my legs start tingling and it’s hard to get up. also, my ankles and feet are already starting to swell- i could really tell today in my sandals, my ankles had little fat rolls. at the doctor today for my 28-week checkup i had to drink a super sweet, nasty room-temperature, flat drink, wait an hour and then get blood drawn to test for a gestational diabetes test. supposedly pregnant women are susceptible to getting this, as the hormones from the placenta can block the action of the mother’s insulin in her body…or something like that. our families do not have a history of diabetes, so i’m hoping the results come back negative, but if the test comes back inconclusive, i’ll need to go back, drink that disgusting drink again (!) and then wait 3 hours and get tested again, so please keep your fingers crossed for me! after our doctor appointment dekel & i went to chick-fil-a because i’ve been craving chicken minis soooo bad! i got a 4-piece meal and then went back for 4 more #noshame. dek got back from a 10-day trip to israel yesterday & it feels so good to have him back, it felt like an eternity this time. he’s gone back to visit family & friends before but it felt different this time, like a bigger piece of my heart was missing. i really missed my partner and cuddle buddy, peanut only let me cuddle him so much- ha!
i’m 24 weeks preggers & time is flying by! (see week 17 here & week 20 here) i feel like my bump tripled in size in the last month and is now totes poppin’. i’ve swollen up in a lot of areas besides just my tummy & this has helped keep my legs from rubbing together when i wear dresses (which is every day!) and keep the bump supported. before i bought it, i was wearing dekel’s boxers- ha! baby boy is the size of a cantaloupe this week, which is funny because i’ve been eating cold cantaloupe like crazy for the past 3 weeks. he’s definitely moving around in there, i feel him every day, mostly at night. it’s like a little internal pressure feeling but when dek puts his hand on my stomach he can feel the slight twitches too and it’s so fun to feel him. we got back from our #babymoon in maui, hawaii which was uhhhmaazing! i plan to write a whole post on it to include all the deets, but it was seriously one of our favorite splurgy vacations to-date & i’m so glad we decided to go just the two of us before growing our little family, we spent so much quality time together and made such fun memories. last weekend we had a mini garage sale to get rid of some crap around the house that we didn’t need and more importantly to clear out the nursery so we could get started on building it. we got this crib & this rug from target to start with and now it’s about hanging wall art and placing decor, which i have tons of from working at at home. the next big things on our list to buy in preparation of baby arrival are some sort of bassinet or sleeper for our room since he will most likely sleep in there with us for a few months & like a stroller, car seat, etc. – what else do i need?! i’ll share a before/after of the nursery once it’s done, it’s fun to be creating a new room in our home and i love walking in there or walking past it and seeing the crib, knowing baby boy will soon be with us. it’s still so nuts to me i’m pregnant!
i am officially 20 weeks along in my pregnancy & baby bump is in full effect and totes visible now all the time, even when i lay down and your stomach usually flattens out. he’s there! can’t believe this is the half-way-there mark, it’s gone by so fast it seems but my body keeps changing. my boobs are huge and like everyone says, your nipples really do get dark. i don’t have stretch marks yet, but i’m prone to get them, so will be ordering this to try to help. i’ve gained a total of 20 pounds already which freaks me out, but i’m making a more conscious effort to eat better and exercise more, at least keep my body in motion and take walks every night. i try not to be too hard on myself about the weight gain, but it is something that is always on my mind. i haven’t really felt him yet but think i felt my first “flutters” the other morning. it felt like there was a muscle twitch from the inside and i looked down and couldn’t see anything. i poke on my belly all the time to feel him, but i think he’s too small at this point still. we had our 20-week appointment today and all is well, baby boy is growing at a great rate and seems healthy and happy in there. he weighs 13-ounces and is as long as a banana. #bananababy we had an ultrasound today so we were able to see him moving his arms and legs around, see his little, fast heartbeat & and the silhouette of his face and body, which was so cool!
you can kind of make out his side face silhouette in the below sonogram, half the time we didn’t know what we were really looking at, but the more i study it the more i see his head, nose, and little mouth. #swoon
for the most part, i am wearing dresses every day. jeans don’t work and i don’t really like maternity jeans. a sweet friend from work gave me a few pairs, but i just don’t like them and i do love dresses, so it’s all good. this beautiful maxi is one i picked up this past weekend from a boutique called grace & edge which was at the boho market at community brewery this time. we love the boho market & it being at a brewery was a reason for dekel and my dad & sisters to come too, since they were in town visiting from connecticut. i love the flowiness of it and the salmon color is gorgeous. i had been eying this dress and turns out it’s the exact same one, just in a different color!
i thought it would be fun to start documenting my experience, maybe not every week, but i want to remember my feelings and thoughts throughout this pregnancy & be able to share them with you.
i’m feeling really good! besides having a bump in my lower abdomen (which i joke is a food baby most of the time) i don’t really feel or look pregnant. he pops out more in the evenings after work. i’m completely over the nausea/morning sickness phase (thank goodness!) and the smell aversions have passed and now i’m just hungry all the time and i finally feel like i have some energy back. finding clothes that work is a struggle, jeans are a no-go most days but i’m enjoying flowy dresses as of late. to keep my body in motion dek & i go on walks with the dogs after work and every saturday morning we go to the park by our house and i walk while he runs, today i jogged a lap which felt really good. as for cravings, i’m super into sour stuff, like tart grapefruit juice and sour candies (this is not a stretch from my normal behavior though, ha!) and also really into salads with vinegarette. we’re starting to plan a babymoon! i got really emotional the other night thinking this would be our last trip without a baby in our lives and without a worry of another human being depending on us, i really am going to miss it just being ‘me & dek.’ we’re excited about this new chapter, but it’s also like closing a door on what was and that struck me hard. i’ll keep you posted on where we think of going, we’re limited due to the zika virus and since i want to be by a beach, currently on our list is bahamas, hawaii and grand cayman.
<dress & sandals- marshall’s, sunnies- forever21, purse- from a vintage store in LA>
& it’s a BOY!!!!!! we’re expecting our first little baby later this year! oct. 1 to be precise but with my birthday on sept. 28 and with my luck i will turn 33 and go into labor all in one day, ha!
we’ve been trying to get pregnant since our trip to bali last may. i’ll never forget the afternoon we decided it was time to start our family. we had been talking about when would be the “right time” and all of a sudden it hit us…we were sitting in a cafe in seminyak called ‘the fat turtle‘ and we were casually having brunch and an austrailian couple about our age next to us had the cutest kids, one about 2 or 3 and one in a stroller sleeping and i had an out-of-body experience where i envisioned our future life like that was us with our two kids still traveling the world & we started talking about how having kids should not stop us from adventuring or traveling, just enrich our lives and bring us joy, so it was that day i stopped taking my birth control pills. i’d been taking them daily since high school so wasn’t sure how long it would take for them to wash out of my system and my ovulation cycle to normalize back out, but here we are not even a year later and i’m growing a life inside of me! it still is so crazy saying that & thinking there’s a heartbeat in my belly that’s beyond mine.
this journey so far has been a rollercoaster. i was in shock and disbelief at first. i’ll never forget taking a pregnancy test because my period was late and seeing two pink lines, the test clearly says that if you see two lines (even if the second line is faint it means positive) but i took another two tests, ya know…. just to be sure. after feeling confident in my tests i ran into the kitchen and told dek who squeezed me and then i snapped this pic to my sister:
i wasn’t feeling any symptoms when i found out i was pregnant, i think because i found out so early, i was literally a few days late for my first missed period so i was probably only about 5 weeks preggers at this point. we went to dinner with my mom that weekend and i told her by giving her a card that said “baby” on the front and i wrote “in the oven” on the inside and even though i told her not to tell anyone, she was so excited she told the waitress at dinner! debbie was (& still is!) so full of excitement and joy, it’s hard to get mad at her. i love my mom so much! at around 7 weeks was when i started to feel nauseous all the time, especially when i would first wake up in the morning and it would last until mid-afternoon. when i saw my doctor a week later she recommended eating more small meals throughout the day and keeping things like crackers by the bed so i could nibble before even getting up. i found things like gatorade, goldfish & fruit helped me, but really all i was “craving” were carbs and sweets. i wanted nothing to do with healthy food and some things (& smells!) like eggs were such a turnoff. i wasn’t sure how to go about telling my friends and especially work, but i knew i wanted to wait at least until i saw a doctor to quadruple confirm and also hear that all was good with the little baby & i’m glad i did because seeing a sonogram with a little baby bump growing inside me made it so, so real.
after my first doctor visit at around 8 weeks, i invited my closet girlfriends & sister over for a mimosa brunch because i wanted to tell them in person and hug their necks, which is exactly how it went down. my bestie molly knew before coming over because she guessed! she’s a mind-reader and when i said i wanted to host a brunch she texted me “are you pregnant?” and i was like “how the hell does she even know?!?!” but it worked out because she was able to secretly film everyone’s reaction, which i still tear up at watching & am thankful it’s on video.
i’m now at the 15-week mark and have passed the nausea phase and am feeling more energized and good! we found out and revealed the gender to our work and family & friends, so it’s all becoming even more real than before if that’s even possible. thinking of what’s in me as a boy is crazy. i have to admit that i was disappointed to find out it’s a boy as i really wanted a girl. i somehow envisioned myself with a girl and felt like that was what i was growing, but i was wrong! that feeling of disappointment has since passed, i really just want a healthy baby, but it was like a small dream was crushed when we got the bloodwork results from week 12 doctor visit and opened it together at our kitchen island & scrolled down to find “male.” i know i will love this baby unconditionally, but i’m just being honest. i’ve now formed a small belly pooch which to me is this awkward in-between of baby bump and food baby, but dekel kisses it every morning and my friends at work touch my belly and get excited for me and this compounds the joy inside. i’m happy to have shared my secret and now that it’s out in the open i’m excited to connect and learn from other moms and future-moms. this is just a whole new chapter in the book of life we have turned and it’s really exciting, scary, thrilling, crazy, emotional and fun at the same time.