atlas leo iftach our birth story

i would love to document & share our birth story of baby atlas while it’s fresh in my memory so i can cherish the little details forever, as it was one of the most insane days of my life! my due date of 10/1 had come & gone and i felt no signs that he was coming anytime soon. i was anxious about feeling contractions and going into labor but tried to keep calm and enjoy the last few days just me and dek and my family. my mom and i had been meeting for breakfast every friday for the last few months and that week was going to be no different, except that she needed to meet on thursday instead of friday because she had a repair-man coming to fix something at her house friday, so we planned to meet for breakfast at yolk on thursday (10/4) morning at 7 am.

i showered the night before (wednesday evening) but didn’t wash my hair, i wanted onnneee more day with my amazing birthday blowout from drybar, which i had gotten done on friday for my bday (i reeaallly made it last!) and went to bed around 11 or so. i was used to getting up to pee several times in the middle of the night, but that night i was woken by a gush of fluids coming out of me…while i was still laying in bed. i knew it wasn’t pee so i shot up and ran to the bathroom and yelled to dekel “dek! i think my water just broke!” i sat on the toilet shaking and crying because i was so scared for what was to come. he hugged me in a foggy state from being frantically woken up & told me that everything was going to be ok and that he would start packing the car with the hospital bags. my doctor told us if my water broke to come in immediately but it was 4:09 am & her office was obviously closed so we would need to go to the emergency room to check my dilation.

after the initial shock of my water breaking, i was weirdly calm. i was not feeling any contractions & was not in any pain so i took my time getting ready to go to the hospital. i swiped on some mascara and bronzer, ate cereal, folded laundry and loved on peanut, our pup. dek packed the car, made coffee & took out the trash. we left the house around 5:15 and on the way there i was in disbelief that we would soon meet our son. the drive to the hospital only took 5 minutes since we live so close and it was so early. we checked into the ER, sat down in the empty waiting room & just waited while holding hands. they finally called us back & put us in a room, had me change into a hospital gown (which i put on backward- ha!), asked me a million questions, checked my vital signs and had the doctor on duty come in to check how dilated i was and to confirm that my water did actually break. she confirmed that i was dilated to 3 cm and that we weren’t going to be going back home that morning and that we would be sent up to labor & delivery to start receiving pitocin, which is a synthetic version of oxytocin that acts to “kickstart” contractions & get labor going. they put an IV into my wrist vein in preparation for the fluids and drugs i would be receiving later on and immediately a rush of fear came back over me. while alone in the room waiting for the wheelchair to whisk me upstairs i cried again to dek who hugged me & held me close.

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{me & peanut having cereal for breakfast before leaving for the hospital to have baby atlas!}

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{in the ER waiting to go upstairs to labor & delivery}

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{being whisked away!}

we got up to labor & delivery and once we rolled into that room where i would give birth it all became SO real! i looked at the clock and it was already 7:30, like where had time gone?! i went to the bathroom before laying on the delivery bed because i was terrified i would poop during delivery and wanted to try to avoid that at all costs. once on the delivery bed they hooked me up to a machine so they could monitor my blood pressure, baby’s heart rate & my contractions. i started feeling crampy but the pain wasn’t that bad at this point so i just tried to lay there and relax and wait, breathing softly through the cramps that would come in waves. at around 8:30 or 9 my mom and sister showed up and were in the room with us and my contractions were getting stronger & stronger and i was uncomfortable. at this point they checked me and i was only dilated to 4 cm so i wasn’t even in “active labor” yet & just needed to keep having contractions to move the baby down the birth canal. the nurses hooked me up with some drug to my IV to mask the pain i was feeling until the anesthesiologist was free and could come to give me an epidural. the pain drug made me feel drunk and i remember one of the nurses talking to me and my eyes kept wanting to cross and my brain being foggy, but it did help with the pain. they kept adjusting my pitocin levels and made sure i was getting fluids so there would be no delay for the epidural. the anesthesiologist came in around 10:30 and gave me the epidural which i was so worried would be painful, but i only felt a prick. along with the epidural they needed to insert a catheter since i wouldn’t be able to get up to pee until hours after birth. after getting the epidural i felt immediate relief from the cramping but after a few hours of laboring i felt intense pressure down below (not necessarily pain, but intense pressure like i had to poop) and i remember thinking to myself “my body wants to push” but the nurse needed to check me again to be sure i was actually ready to start pushing.

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{strapped up for contraction & heart rate monitoring}

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{getting an epidural}

lunchtime had come and gone and while i couldn’t eat anything, my mom, sister & dekel had gotten food to eat in the room and fed me some ice chips. i mostly tried to sleep, relax and concentrate on breathing and i remember my eyes were closed most of the time and just feeling “out of it.” it’s now about 3 pm and after being checked to see how dilated i was the nurse said i was a +2 (whatever that means!) and that it was go time! i was terrified but felt brave & ready at the same time. she told me that during each contraction (we could see when i was having one on the screen but i could also slightly feel them) i would push for 10 seconds and then rest and wait for the next one to push as hard as i can again. she touched me inside so i knew where to push to because it’s a certain kind of pushing you have to do, like in a certain spot you focus on to actually move the baby down. so the pushing process began and it was hard fucking work! an hour or so went by and she finally called for my doctor to come in for delivery, which made me feel like he was close to coming out. everyone was telling me they could see his head and his hair, which was so cool but really freaked me out! with every contraction i was pushing as hard as i could but towards the end i was getting frustrated, i felt like i was using up all my effort and i was afraid that when i stopped pushing he was getting sucked back up and that all the hard work i did in those 10 seconds was reverting, so i just wanted to keep pushing. i remember feeling my doctor stretching me out with her fingers, like going in circular motions inside me and that hurt like hell! my sister said the doctor even used dial soap to lube me up so he would come out easier! after pushing for what seemed like forever i even thought to myself “i just want to stop pushing and maybe he’ll just stay inside of me” – ha! i secretly wanted them to pull him out by his head because i was getting so discouraged that it was taking so long and i was getting so tired. what kept me going was my cheerleading squad. my husband, sister & mom who i am so thankful were all there with me. my sister was by my side fanning me and holding my hair up from my neck because i was getting so hot & bothered. dek was holding one of my legs and kept telling me i was doing great. and my mom was an emotional wreck on the other side of me just crying, which was so sweet. the nurses (i swear at this point there were like 10 people in the room!) even held my hands to pull me up to push harder because my arms were getting tired of lifting myself up. they kept telling me to pull my body up to try to see him coming out, but i didn’t really want to see that. i just wanted to feel the relief of him coming out. at 4:51 it happened. he slithered out. that’s the only way i can describe the relief feeling, it felt like a giant floppy thing just came out and i remember seeing the nurses cleaning him off a bit and my doctor holding him to get him to cry and after a few seconds they placed him on my chest and i just laid there with my eyes closed feeling him on me. i just held him tight and couldn’t believe i did it.

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{baby atlas is born…with a suuuppper stretched out head}

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{skin-to-skin right after birth}

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{relaxing after birth}

i tore during delivery so my doctor needed to stitch me up. the baby on my chest was a good distraction but i could still feel tugging down there so i told the doctor and they released more epidural drugs so i would become number while she stitched me up. i also still needed to deliver the placenta, which in my case didn’t come out. my doctor had to go inside of me elbow-deep to pull it out…twice! that part was soooo painful and i was so relieved when she was done and everyone left the room for me to rest with baby and family. we spent 2 nights at the hospital in a private recovery room which passed in a groggy, but blissful daze of baby snuggles and sleepless nights. i started breastfeeding with the help & guidance of sweet lactation consultants. it was so painful at first, it literally felt like my nipples were being chopped up in a blender but it’s since gotten so much better and it’s not painful anymore. i was taken care of by the sweet staff who brought in lots of pain meds, helped me go to the bathroom, etc. dek would help me walk around the recovery wing and my mom & sister came to visit and hold him so we could nap during the day or so dek could go home to feed our dogs. i was nervous to go home but also ready to start our life with baby atlas and figure things out for ourselves.

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{there was a sofa bed in our recovery room, but we chose to sleep together in my bed}

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{skin-to-skin with dad}

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{one of my favorite faces he makes. i like to call it “grump mcstump”}

atlas leo iftach our birth story

{cuddles after breastfeeding for the first time}

thanks for reading!

let me know if you have any questions about my birth experience, i want to be an open, honest book so feel free to reach out!

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it’s my birthday weekend!- woo hoo! i turned 33 on friday, 9/28, and while i didn’t feel like celebrating myself at first since i’m so pregnant, i really forgot how amazing birthdays can be. i was showered with positivity and felt so loved – it was a really special day. i did this post last year & wanted to do something similar this year just for fun. below are random things about me so you can get to know me just a little bit better if you care to read. have a great rest of the weekend!

velvet dress birthday weekend 40 weeks pregnant

1. I met my husband, Dekel, in Israel where he is from and I was living while studying Hebrew post-college. I was delaying “the real world” and finding a job so I moved abroad with my sister to get to know our Israeli family better & learn Hebrew fluently, which I succeeded in…and bonus, met an amazing guy!

2. One of my biggest passions is photography. I am far from “professional” and tend to think of really good photographers as light manipulators & badass editors, but I love playing around with my camera, learning it’s settings and seeing the world through my lenses.

3. If it’s not obvious from all of the baby bump posts (ha!) we are expecting our first baby on Monday, 10/1…well, that’s his official “due date” at least. It’s a boy (see our gender reveal here) and this pregnancy journey has been such an exciting, scary, emotional time in my life. I’m glad we waiting until we did to have a baby (married almost 7 years and have traveled a lot of the world together) and I tell Dekel all the time that I’m so thankful to have him through this whole experience, as it tests your everything. Your sanity, your patience, your relationship, your spirit.

4. I like to think I’m creative and semi-good at artistic things like abstract painting on canvas, making jewelry and home decorating.

5. Breakfast/Brunch is my favorite meal of the day, I love finding new-to-me spots here in Dallas. Actually back in March my mom & I started meeting every Friday before work to have breakfast just the two of us. We take turns picking out the place & paying and it’s been one of my favorite traditions yet!

6. I’m not a hoarder so-to-speak, but if you peek in my closets at home, you will find extra unnecessary home décor (lanterns, candle holders, vases & toss pillows) …just in the case that I want to mix things up around the house.

7. My hair is one of my best features, since 6th grade I’ve been told I should be a hair model, asked if it’s real, who cuts/colors it (my bestie, Katelin- btw!) and how I style it and I beam every time it gets complimented.

velvet dress birthday weekend 40 weeks pregnant

8. Cuddling is my favorite. I’ve always loved sleeping with Dekel & snuggling up to him – we both love being intertwined.

9. I used to play girls golf in high school & was actually not that bad at it. Haven’t picked up a club in years, but it’s like riding a bike, right?!

10. I’ve seen every single episode of Sex & The City (and both movies) multiple times – my sister and I bought all of the DVD’s before moving to Israel and watched all of them together after our Hebrew classes in the evenings.

11. Crisp linen or fresh cotton are my favorite candle scents.

12. It gives me anxiety to be late to things like a flight, an appointment, a lunch date, etc.

13. I met a great group of girls in high school & am still best friends with them. I’m lucky & thankful to have so many wonderful women in my “tribe.”

14. I like to shop so much that I have a shopping budget allocated toward this expense each month so that I won’t feel guilty about spending money on clothes, shoes, jewelry, etc. – I love refreshing my wardrobe so my closet is in a constant rotation.

15. Water is my least favorite thing to drink. I always have to force myself to hydrate and usually end up adding some sort of flavor to my water bottles, like watermelon or pink lemonade or opting for topo chico.

velvet dress birthday weekend 40 weeks pregnant

16. I’ve become a snorer in the late stages of this pregnancy. I also wear a night-guard because I grind my teeth at night and wake my husband up with the loud noise it makes.

17. I don’t really have a favorite flower or color, it all depends on my mood or the season.

18. I pretty much always back up into parking spots, it’s like my specialty and just something I got used to while living in Israel. Oh! and I always use a parking brake.

19. I like salt on my chocolate chip cookies.

20. I despise chunks in my yogurt (it makes me gag) but coconut is the only exception. Give me all of the coconut pieces. In fact, coconut everything…except water.

21. I sometimes make up words using Hebrew & English and Dek loves it.

22. I chose to get married on Valentines Day so I would never forget the date because I have a bad memory when it comes to dates for certain things.

23. I have a very bohemian style, in nature, clothing and home decor but with a modern twist…or so I like to think.

velvet dress birthday weekend 40 weeks pregnant

24. My husband calls me the “salad champion” because I make killer salads.

25. Coldplay & No Doubt/Gwen Stefani are some of my favorite artists, but I really like all types of music.

26. I prefer crushed ice over cubed.

27. While I like to indulge on kid cereals sometimes (Lucky Charms & Cinnamon Toast Crunch, especially!), my all-time favorite cereal that I always have in stock at home is Honey Bunches of Oats with Almonds.

28. Some of my favorite symbols are the evil eye protector (nazar) & the hamsa.

29. I love seeing green plants throughout my home, it adds life and freshness.

30. I’m very friendly and like to think of myself and a generally “nice” person but I also feel super socially akward in situations where I don’t know anyone, I’m really bad at small talk and knowing what to ask/say to keep conversations going. Def need to work on that!

31. I would take thin-crust pizza over deep dish and my toppings of choice are feta cheese & green olives.

32. I’m not that big of a red or white wine drinker, but rosé all day I can agree with.

33. Beach > mountains.

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week 36 pregnancy bumpdate papaya

i’m wrapping up week 36 of my pregnancy & coming to the realization that he could literally come into the world any day now. this is all out of my control and i’m trying my best to go-with-the-flow and be open-minded for when/how labor could happen. i’m finding peace in thinking of my mama friend’s who have had kids and just reminding myself that so many other women do this…i can do this! my belly is rock hard like a bowling ball and he’s still moving around (especially in the evenings) and hiccuping every day. getting up from sitting or getting out of bed is truly a struggle, it’s just hard to maneuver this extra large bump! his nursery is ready for him, decorated and filled with necessities, even though he will most likely be sleeping in a bassinet next to our bed for the first few weeks. a bassinet came with the uppababy vista stroller we bought and we got a bassinet stand that it clips onto so he will be near me when i will need to get up for feedings around the clock. i plan to breastfeed, but ya never know! we hope to introduce baby bottles ~a month in so that dek & other family members can experience feeding time and give me a break when needed. i am, day-by-day, adding things to my hospital bag & i’m 100% sure i’m overpacking but i’d rather take too much stuff and be overprepared than need that onnneee thing i didn’t bring. i’ll share what i’m packing in another post- i’ve gotten some great recommendations from friends which i am really thankful for. we are trying our best to “prepare” the doggies for baby’s arrival by using the word “baby” a lot and being in the nursery with them, letting them sniff everything new and also playing baby crying videos from youtube, which they don’t seem to care about yet, but i’m excited to see how they react to the real thing! this could possibly be my last “baby bumpdate” post as i have been doing these every 4 weeks (see previous ones here), so the next one would technically be at 40 weeks. we’ll see – wish me luck!

week 36 pregnancy bumpdate papaya

week 36 pregnancy bumpdate papaya

week 36 pregnancy bumpdate papaya

week 36 pregnancy bumpdate papaya

 

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baby boy & i had a shower this weekend with friends and family and i was completely overwhelmed by all of the love and the amount of detail put into making it so beautiful and perfect. it was seriously the bohemian baby shower of my dreams! i’m now 34 weeks preggers (for previous posts about my #bumpdates click here) and it was the perfect time to have this shower. i have a pretty significant baby belly but am not to the point where i am too uncomfortable to walk or anything, so the timing was on point. a few months ago my sister/best friends/tribe asked me what vibe i wanted & what some of my favorite things were to eat, etc. & they just took it from there! i told them i wanted to keep it simple and slightly bohemian, not overly “babyish” & they went above & beyond! the invitations were perfection, simple with a touch of greenery…down to the handwritten mailing addresses (dekel thought it was spam when it came in the mail because my friend marli’s handwriting is so pretty he thought it was a stamp!!!) the shower itself was at my friend katelin’s house & from the moment i walked in i was blown away! there was garland hanging from doorways, beautiful balloons, blue hydrangeas, take-home succulent shower gifts for all of the guests, a buffet spread that made my mouth water with all of my cravings & favorite foods, endless grapefruit juice, chilled topo chico, a mantle that boasted handmade decorated wooden letters by my friend chelsey and all of my favorite people under one roof. my mom also brought my baby book so we could flip through and reminisce. we ate and then took a quiz on how well everyone knew me & my pregnancy, which was really fun! it was a dream baby shower & such a special day, i’m so thankful to have so many people who love me and my family & who are excited to meet baby boy soon!

here are some photos we took throughout the day:

baby shower hostess photo

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baby shower food buffet table

baby shower charcuterie board

baby shower mantle decor

baby shower food buffet table

baby shower katelin

baby shower chicken minis platter

baby shower donuts and cheesecake

baby shower decor

baby shower cheesecake

baby shower cindis bagels

baby shower sarah

baby shower chicken minis and sweets

baby shower donut skewers

baby shower chelsey

baby shower momosa bar

baby shower molly

baby shower topo chico

baby shower lauren

baby shower baby iftach

baby shower mantle decor and gifts

baby shower grandmother

baby shower watch me grow succulent gift

baby shower mirelle

baby shower playing games

baby shower my 3 moms

baby shower 34 week baby bump

baby shower oh boy balloons

baby shower molly

baby shower invitation

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week 28 pregnancy bumpdate buffalo exchange blue splatter dress

week 28 of my pregnancy is coming to an end and i’m officially in the 3rd trimester, which is nuts! (see previous pregnancy bumpdates from week 17 here, week 20 here & week 24 here) signs that i’m in the 3rd trimester are charlie horses, i’m getting them like every other day right when i wake up and stretch my legs, which is soooo annoying & painful. another thing i’m experiencing is losing sensation in my legs and if i sit on my knees to play with the dogs, even for a few minutes, my legs start tingling and it’s hard to get up. also, my ankles and feet are already starting to swell- i could really tell today in my sandals, my ankles had little fat rolls. at the doctor today for my 28-week checkup i had to drink a super sweet, nasty room-temperature, flat drink, wait an hour and then get blood drawn to test for a gestational diabetes test. supposedly pregnant women are susceptible to getting this, as the hormones from the placenta can block the action of the mother’s insulin in her body…or something like that. our families do not have a history of diabetes, so i’m hoping the results come back negative, but if the test comes back inconclusive, i’ll need to go back, drink that disgusting drink again (!) and then wait 3 hours and get tested again, so please keep your fingers crossed for me! after our doctor appointment dekel & i went to chick-fil-a because i’ve been craving chicken minis soooo bad! i got a 4-piece meal and then went back for 4 more #noshame. dek got back from a 10-day trip to israel yesterday & it feels so good to have him back, it felt like an eternity this time. he’s gone back to visit family & friends before but it felt different this time, like a bigger piece of my heart was missing. i really missed my partner and cuddle buddy, peanut only let me cuddle him so much- ha!

week 28 pregnancy bumpdate

week 28 pregnancy bumpdate buffalo exchange blue splatter dress

week 28 pregnancy bumpdate buffalo exchange blue splatter dress

week 28 pregnancy bumpdate buffalo exchange blue splatter dress

week 28 pregnancy bumpdate buffalo exchange blue splatter dress

week 28 pregnancy bumpdate buffalo exchange blue splatter dress

<dress- buffalo exchange, purse- sam moon, sandals- street shop in vegas>

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week 24 pregnancy baby bumpdate

i’m 24 weeks preggers & time is flying by! (see week 17 here & week 20 here) i feel like my bump tripled in size in the last month and is now totes poppin’. i’ve swollen up in a lot of areas besides just my tummy & this has helped keep my legs from rubbing together when i wear dresses (which is every day!) and keep the bump supported. before i bought it, i was wearing dekel’s boxers- ha! baby boy is the size of a cantaloupe this week, which is funny because i’ve been eating cold cantaloupe like crazy for the past 3 weeks. he’s definitely moving around in there, i feel him every day, mostly at night. it’s like a little internal pressure feeling but when dek puts his hand on my stomach he can feel the slight twitches too and it’s so fun to feel him. we got back from our #babymoon in maui, hawaii which was uhhhmaazing! i plan to write a whole post on it to include all the deets, but it was seriously one of our favorite splurgy vacations to-date & i’m so glad we decided to go just the two of us before growing our little family, we spent so much quality time together and made such fun memories. last weekend we had a mini garage sale to get rid of some crap around the house that we didn’t need and more importantly to clear out the nursery so we could get started on building it. we got this crib & this rug from target to start with and now it’s about hanging wall art and placing decor, which i have tons of from working at at home. the next big things on our list to buy in preparation of baby arrival are some sort of bassinet or sleeper for our room since he will most likely sleep in there with us for a few months & like a stroller, car seat, etc. – what else do i need?! i’ll share a before/after of the nursery once it’s done, it’s fun to be creating a new room in our home and i love walking in there or walking past it and seeing the crib, knowing baby boy will soon be with us. it’s still so nuts to me i’m pregnant!

pregnancy week 24 baby bumpdate

pregnancy week 24 baby bumpdate

pregnancy week 24 baby bumpdate

pregnancy week 24 baby bumpdate

pregnancy week 24 baby bumpdate

<dress- ross stores, duster vest- forever 21, heels- target>

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grade and edge maxi dress 20 week pregnancy

i am officially 20 weeks along in my pregnancy & baby bump is in full effect and totes visible now all the time, even when i lay down and your stomach usually flattens out. he’s there! can’t believe this is the half-way-there mark, it’s gone by so fast it seems but my body keeps changing. my boobs are huge and like everyone says, your nipples really do get dark. i don’t have stretch marks yet, but i’m prone to get them, so will be ordering this to try to help. i’ve gained a total of 20 pounds already which freaks me out, but i’m making a more conscious effort to eat better and exercise more, at least keep my body in motion and take walks every night. i try not to be too hard on myself about the weight gain, but it is something that is always on my mind. i haven’t really felt him yet but think i felt my first “flutters” the other morning. it felt like there was a muscle twitch from the inside and i looked down and couldn’t see anything. i poke on my belly all the time to feel him, but i think he’s too small at this point still. we had our 20-week appointment today and all is well, baby boy is growing at a great rate and seems healthy and happy in there. he weighs 13-ounces and is as long as a banana. #bananababy we had an ultrasound today so we were able to see him moving his arms and legs around, see his little, fast heartbeat & and the silhouette of his face and body, which was so cool!

you can kind of make out his side face silhouette in the below sonogram, half the time we didn’t know what we were really looking at, but the more i study it the more i see his head, nose, and little mouth. #swoon

baby bumpdate 20 weeks pregnant

for the most part, i am wearing dresses every day. jeans don’t work and i don’t really like maternity jeans. a sweet friend from work gave me a few pairs, but i just don’t like them and i do love dresses, so it’s all good. this beautiful maxi is one i picked up this past weekend from a boutique called grace & edge which was at the boho market at community brewery this time. we love the boho market & it being at a brewery was a reason for dekel and my dad & sisters to come too, since they were in town visiting from connecticut. i love the flowiness of it and the salmon color is gorgeous. i had been eying this dress and turns out it’s the exact same one, just in a different color!

grade and edge maxi dress 20 week pregnancy

maxi dress silver necklace bohemian style pregnancy update 20 weeks

grade and edge maxi dress 20 week pregnancy

grade and edge maxi dress and target sandals 20 week pregnancy

<dress- grace & edge boutique, necklace- handmade by me, sandals- target>

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week 17 pregnancy baby bump update

i thought it would be fun to start documenting my experience, maybe not every week, but i want to remember my feelings and thoughts throughout this pregnancy & be able to share them with you.

i’m feeling really good! besides having a bump in my lower abdomen (which i joke is a food baby most of the time) i don’t really feel or look pregnant. he pops out more in the evenings after work. i’m completely over the nausea/morning sickness phase (thank goodness!) and the smell aversions have passed and now i’m just hungry all the time and i finally feel like i have some energy back. finding clothes that work is a struggle, jeans are a no-go most days but i’m enjoying flowy dresses as of late. to keep my body in motion dek & i go on walks with the dogs after work and every saturday morning we go to the park by our house and i walk while he runs, today i jogged a lap which felt really good. as for cravings, i’m super into sour stuff, like tart grapefruit juice and sour candies (this is not a stretch from my normal behavior though, ha!) and also really into salads with vinegarette. we’re starting to plan a babymoon! i got really emotional the other night thinking this would be our last trip without a baby in our lives and without a worry of another human being depending on us, i really am going to miss it just being ‘me & dek.’ we’re excited about this new chapter, but it’s also like closing a door on what was and that struck me hard. i’ll keep you posted on where we think of going, we’re limited due to the zika virus and since i want to be by a beach, currently on our list is bahamas, hawaii and grand cayman.

week 17 pregnancy baby bumpdate

week 17 pregnancy baby bump update

week 17 pregnancy baby bump update

week 17 pregnancy baby bump update

week 17 pregnancy baby bump update

<dress & sandals- marshall’s, sunnies- forever21, purse- from a vintage store in LA>

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ootd by deep ellum mural dallas texas

this weekend flew by (don’t they always?!) but there were some really fun & relaxing moments that i’d love to share!

friday i worked from home & was able to accomplish a lot. a lot of work and a lot of personal crap. i made some returns, cleaned my car & had breakfast with my mom. mom & i started doing weekly dates about a month ago & taking turns picking out the place and paying each time. it’s so nice to spend time just the two of us. previously we’ve gone to lunch at super chix, breakfast at the flying biscuit, breakfast at communion, breakfast at chiloso & this past friday we enjoyed breakfast at cindi’s, which i highly recommend! i had the waffle platter and got a salt bagel to-go for lunch that afternoon and it was so good (salt bagels are my all-time fav) that i took dekel there again for breakfast on saturday to get another one & got 2 more for the week ahead!

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on saturday dek & i went to a park near our house where he ran & i walked the dogs and then we wore them out by playing frisbee & throwing the ball. it was a dreary/gloomy morning so eating a hearty breakfast at cindi’s left us full and ready to chill on the couch/nap, which is exactly what we did for the rest of the afternoon. i watched kuwtk while dek napped then worked on the computer, then we watched this movie called ‘den of thieves‘ which was pretty good.

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sunday was ‘lunch with family’ day and we met my mom, sister & grandmother in deep ellum to eat at pecan lodge. unfortunately, it was 12:30 and the line was redic! there was no way i was waiting in that line, let alone my almost-93-year-old grandmother! so we agreed to be more strategic next time and arrive right when they open at 11 and opted to go across the street to easy slider for some burgers. dek & i have been there before & liked the little burger options they have & food was just as good this time around, but service could improve. after lunch we walked next door to rocket fizz for a something sweet, or in my case sour! i literally spent $10 on sour candies, eating the whole thing of sweet tarts chewy sours before we got home. whoops. i also scooped up now & later extreme sour and mike & ike sourlicious fruit punch (which are sooo good!) all this goodness won’t last but a few days, ha!

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shirt- the boho market, skirt- $9 from forever 21 clearance section (similar style here), purse- merci handmade vintage, shoes- marshall’s 

what were you up to this weekend?

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& it’s a BOY!!!!!! we’re expecting our first little baby later this year! oct. 1 to be precise but with my birthday on sept. 28 and with my luck i will turn 33 and go into labor all in one day, ha!

we’ve been trying to get pregnant since our trip to bali last may. i’ll never forget the afternoon we decided it was time to start our family. we had been talking about when would be the “right time” and all of a sudden it hit us…we were sitting in a cafe in seminyak called ‘the fat turtle‘ and we were casually having brunch and an austrailian couple about our age next to us had the cutest kids, one about 2 or 3 and one in a stroller sleeping and i had an out-of-body experience where i envisioned our future life like that was us with our two kids still traveling the world & we started talking about how having kids should not stop us from adventuring or traveling, just enrich our lives and bring us joy, so it was that day i stopped taking my birth control pills. i’d been taking them daily since high school so wasn’t sure how long it would take for them to wash out of my system and my ovulation cycle to normalize back out, but here we are not even a year later and i’m growing a life inside of me! it still is so crazy saying that & thinking there’s a heartbeat in my belly that’s beyond mine.

baby boy gender reveal party

baby boy gender reveal party family photo

baby boy gender reveal

this journey so far has been a rollercoaster. i was in shock and disbelief at first. i’ll never forget taking a pregnancy test because my period was late and seeing two pink lines, the test clearly says that if you see two lines (even if the second line is faint it means positive) but i took another two tests, ya know…. just to be sure. after feeling confident in my tests i ran into the kitchen and told dek who squeezed me and then i snapped this pic to my sister:

positive pregnancy test

i wasn’t feeling any symptoms when i found out i was pregnant, i think because i found out so early, i was literally a few days late for my first missed period so i was probably only about 5 weeks preggers at this point. we went to dinner with my mom that weekend and i told her by giving her a card that said “baby” on the front and i wrote “in the oven” on the inside and even though i told her not to tell anyone, she was so excited she told the waitress at dinner! debbie was (& still is!) so full of excitement and joy, it’s hard to get mad at her. i love my mom so much! at around 7 weeks was when i started to feel nauseous all the time, especially when i would first wake up in the morning and it would last until mid-afternoon. when i saw my doctor a week later she recommended eating more small meals throughout the day and keeping things like crackers by the bed so i could nibble before even getting up. i found things like gatorade, goldfish & fruit helped me, but really all i was “craving” were carbs and sweets. i wanted nothing to do with healthy food and some things (& smells!) like eggs were such a turnoff. i wasn’t sure how to go about telling my friends and especially work, but i knew i wanted to wait at least until i saw a doctor to quadruple confirm and also hear that all was good with the little baby & i’m glad i did because seeing a sonogram with a little baby bump growing inside me made it so, so real.

baby first sonogram

after my first doctor visit at around 8 weeks, i invited my closet girlfriends & sister over for a mimosa brunch because i wanted to tell them in person and hug their necks, which is exactly how it went down. my bestie molly knew before coming over because she guessed! she’s a mind-reader and when i said i wanted to host a brunch she texted me “are you pregnant?” and i was like “how the hell does she even know?!?!” but it worked out because she was able to secretly film everyone’s reaction, which i still tear up at watching & am thankful it’s on video.

girls brunch and pregnancy reveal to friends

steins petit fores pregnancy reveal to best friends

sister love pregnancy reveal

i’m now at the 15-week mark and have passed the nausea phase and am feeling more energized and good! we found out and revealed the gender to our work and family & friends, so it’s all becoming even more real than before if that’s even possible. thinking of what’s in me as a boy is crazy. i have to admit that i was disappointed to find out it’s a boy as i really wanted a girl. i somehow envisioned myself with a girl and felt like that was what i was growing, but i was wrong! that feeling of disappointment has since passed, i really just want a healthy baby, but it was like a small dream was crushed when we got the bloodwork results from week 12 doctor visit and opened it together at our kitchen island & scrolled down to find “male.” i know i will love this baby unconditionally, but i’m just being honest. i’ve now formed a small belly pooch which to me is this awkward in-between of baby bump and food baby, but dekel kisses it every morning and my friends at work touch my belly and get excited for me and this compounds the joy inside. i’m happy to have shared my secret and now that it’s out in the open i’m excited to connect and learn from other moms and future-moms. this is just a whole new chapter in the book of life we have turned and it’s really exciting, scary, thrilling, crazy, emotional and fun at the same time.

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