* it was somewhat akward looking for a photo of myself for this last challenge, even though i post photos of myself on here all the time….dont know why, so i opted for my facebook photo which has been my profile pic for some time. this photo was taken last june when one of my best friends was here visiting me and we went out to a club. my friend are i are not ones to party balls, but here in israel parties dont even begin until midnight or later, so we took an extra long time to get ready and drank some vodka, red bull while passing time and we ended up having a blast partying.
i really miss her.

** on another note…i have officially completed the 10-day challenge, even though it took me a month! (you can find my first challenge post here)  now back to regular-life posting. hope you enjoyed my picks & if you challenged yourself, please leave your link, i would love to come read  =)


1. the jolly postman- i received this book in the 3rd grade from my teacher, as a going away gift when my family moved to israel.
i loved and cherished this book.
2. a light in the attic- also a book from elementary school which i loved and was inspired by.
3. the giving tree- this book sparked so much emotion in me as a child. it made me try to be less greedy and more appreciative of what life gives you.
4. chelsea handler books- i love her short stories
& i love laughing out loud while reading
next up : three films

1. that i we never settle down & buy a home

2. that something will happen to them while i am living across the world. my family, my friends, my pets.

3. a tire blowout when i am by myself

4. spiders
{i could not oven post a photo of one because i was so freaked out}
5. that things will change between us when we make the move


6. war on israel

7. sea creatures

8. heights


wow- this took a long time for me to post.
this is way more challenging that i thought.
try it, i dare you

next up : seven wants
*that should be a lot easier  🙂


A. Age: 25
B. Bed size: queen
C. Chore you hate: filling up gas
D. Dogs: my sister’s wild & crazy weiner dog back home, peanut
E. Essential start to your day: a cup of joe
F. Favorite color: i’ll be 12 and say that it changes everyday.
i seriously don’t have a favorite color
G. Gold or silver: for jewelry? it depends on what it is..
H. Height: 5’6
I. Instruments you play: none, unfortunatly
J. Job title: project manager
K. Kids: in the future
L. Live: in israel
M. Mom’s name: debbie
N. Nicknames: spy, my, yanni, beena, peets
O. Overnight hospital stays: nope *knock on wood*
P. Pet peeve: people who do not smile back, smacking while eating,
guys who do not open doors for girls
Q. Quote from a movie/show: “smilings my favorite” -elf
R. Righty or Lefty: righty
S. Siblings: i have many; two from the same parents who live in texas whom i miss more than anything!!!
T. Time you wake up: 7
U. Underwear: most of the time
V. Vegetables you dislike: peppers of any kind
W. What makes you run late: tv
X. X-rays you’ve had: teeth for the dentist
Y. Yummy food you make: chocolate chip cookies!

Z. Zoo animal favorite: flamingos

ps – would love to read your abc’s!!!

pss – thanks marli for letting me steal the abc idea! lala!

psss – did you know that “ps” stands for “postscript?”


Recovering from the flu; was home sick Mon, Tues & Wed from work. yuck!

But here’s a story for ya:

So on Wednesday I was feeling better and was gaining my strength back and decided to shower, reasonable right? I felt so gross from being bedridden and just was craving a hot shower!! So I turn on the hot water heater (you have to do that here in Israel) and I needed to wait like 30 minutes, so I’m watching Oprah and then Ellen comes on and I ALWAYS watch Ellen, but the shower was more important at this point, so I head to the bathtub…in our bathroom we have a shower and bathtub with like a water handle thing so you can shower in there too. I always use the bathtub because its more spacious and open and whatever. But there’s this little step in the bathtub and since we moved in in March we’ve been talking about putting something down on the floor of the bathtub because its REALLY slippery, but just haven’t gotten around to buying anything for it! (maybe you can see where this story is going..ha) So, I’m smiling, like singing to myself because the Ellen song came on and I’m stepping in the bathtub and like literally 5 seconds upon entering, after turning the hot water on, I step on that damn step in the bathtub and fall so awkwardly on my face. On my nose to be exact. Like on the back part of the bathtub. I got up all discombobulated and disoriented and turned the water off and realized that blood was gushing down my body from my face and stepped out and couldn’t feel my nose. To say the least I was FREAKING OUT. freaking out! The pain set in and I was screaming and crying running around the house (I was home alone- Dekel went to get his hair cut) I grabbed a towel and just held it to my face, scared to examine what was underneath- I thought I broke my nose, you guys. I pick up the phone trembling trying frantically to find his number which took like an hour it felt like, I call Dekel and he calms me down saying he will rush home, but he told me to just sit down and stuff some toilet paper up there to soak blood. He was a medic in the army so he knows what to do and is calm in these situations, unlike me. So, I’m sitting, sobbing, on the couch, shaking, still thinking I broke my nose because I couldn’t feel it or move it and my face was just in pain and I’m just trying to rethink how the hell this happened and how badly I just wanted to shower. Now sitting there nasty and bloody. He arrived like 20 minutes later and cleaned me up and told me it was definitely not broken. (thankgoodness!) So, that’s my story- I can’t tell you all in person so I hope you can hear me telling this story. I’m laughing about it now, but it hurt soooo bad! I was a sad story.

Anyways, it’s the weekend! I wanna know whats going on in your lives!! What are you doing this weekend in America???


Heather came and gone and it was an amazing time. We traveled from the most northern point in Israel to the most southern tip and all in between. We left no ground uncovered it felt like, hit up every view point, bar, restaurant, beach…
Those 3 and a half weeks will be vivid in my memory forever. There are over like 2,000 pictures and 10 hours of video footage to remind me of the good times as well. We were really on our shit.

So- back to reality. I am going Friday with dad to check out Kibbutz Yagur and it’s Ulpan program, which I am enrolled in and expected to begin in a couple of weeks. Around the 21st I believe. I will continue to study Hebrew and work on the kibbutz and live that life which I am not thrilled about, but learning more Hebrew is just what I need to do if I intend on staying and working later on in this country. Having a hard time with the job search, I know I shouldn’t be so picky, but I want so many different things. I want to work in media, then the next day I want to bartend and work in promotions, then again I want to be a flight attendant…jeez.

Ben arrives the 19th and I am so excited to see his face and squeeze the living hell out of him! I have missed that boy like crazy, just not the same without him around…Mirelle and I are missing our guy. Going to be great when he is here, will do a lot of things with the family Im sure, travel around. A trip to Eilat is in the works and I believe we are going from July 26th- Aug 2nd or something like that. Went to IKEA with dad and Simi yesterday to purchase a futon bed for the bomb shelter (that’s the only room in the house left!!) and we got pillows and shelves, transforming the girls play room into a guest room I guess. Good move in my opinion.

Still seeing Dekel. My mind is exhausted from wondering what will come of us. It’s such an easy relationship, we like each other, see each other, are honest and open about everything…everything is great. But. But do I want to get serious? What does that even mean? I can’t deny my feelings, but for some reason it’s obvious that I am trying to mask them and its so weird. I like him so much, think about him everyday, but don’t want to get in too deep. He knows this and says that I should just go with the flow and let things evolve, play out how they are supposed to..but it’s too hard for me to sit back and watch myself get wrapped up. What’s wrong with me? I hear myself giving excuse after excuse for why I don’t want to take the next step in our relationship, but its all bullshit. I need to let go.